Angeni's Past

_{His little whispers.
Love Me. Love Me.
That's all I ask for.
Love Me. Love Me.
He battered his tiny fists to feel something.
Wondered what it's like to touch and feel something.
Monster.
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here.
Looking through the window...
That night he caged her.
Bruised and broke her.
He struggled closer.
Then he stole her.
Violet wrists and then her ankles.
Silent Pain.
Then he slowly saw their nightmares were his dreams.
Monster.
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here.
Looking through the windows.
I will.
Hear their voices.
I'm a glass child.
I am Hannah's regrets.
Monster.
How should I feel?
Turn the sheets down.
Murder ears with pillow lace.
There's bath tubs.
Full of glow flies.
Bathe in kerosene.
Their words tattooed in his veins, yeah.}


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<sub>After all the trouble Angeni's dealt with due to her sexual confusion I decided I'd clue you all in on why she's so confused. I just decided to mix it up a little by adding in a picture.

Ok.

So in her tribe it's custom to be married young. For Angeni she was brought into marriage a lot younger than the other girls because she's obviously a little more important. Seeing as her grandmother was the spiritual guide and her grandfather the villiage cheif.

They assumed this would decide their new cheif and spiritual guide, and Aponi was looking ill. So at 11 Angeni was married to the Hunter, he was the strongest and (supposedly) wisest of the men in her tribe. He was 19 at the time. Unusually young to be decided to wed an important person like her, but he had potential.

11 Year old Angeni was, obviously, terrified but refused to go against the will of her people. So she agreed to this marriage. At first things were well, he wasn't anything but his best. But after a while she began to notice the way he would stare and his touch lingered.

One night he asked her to accompany him on a hunt, of course she couldn't refuse, so she went with him. There he took her innocence and broke her spirit.

Upon her return she told no one what had happened, Aponi knew, but there wasn't a thing the old woman could do about it. They were wed and each had given both body and mind to their partner. Angeni lost her light, she wasn't anything like she'd been before. Broken and constantly drawing in the darker spirits.

One night the darkest she'd ever experienced possessed her during another of her husband's "hunting trips" she'd been taken along on. They hurried her to Aponi.

It all seemed simple enough to the tribe, banish the spirit with her skills and Angeni would recover easily. But her grandmother knew better. Under cloak of the night she removed the spirit from her granddaughter and rushed her to a part of the reservation no one dared enter for fear of being banished there.

To see the Flo, who could save her. With a broken spirit she didn't have the energy to fight off the darkness and it would kill her. She was dangerously ill. The Flo were more than willing to save her at the cost of her right eye. the deal was made and Aponi left for the night.

Four nights later she returned to see her granddaughter, but the girl refused to see her. Eventually Aponi managed to soothe her and make her come forward. What had once been beautiful and unblemished skin was cut open and sewn back together. Forever cursing her as a "Ragdoll", it was proof of the process. As was the dead gray of her right eye.

When she returned to the tribe they immediately shunned her. When her grandmother Aponi fought for her they nearly changed their minds, but the punishment had to be made. They labeled her as Flo. The Native tongue for Crow, and the insult followed her until she began to see it as an alias.

After she was shunned she left to live on the reservation for a while with the Flo, but after a visit from her husband that left her torn up and a wreck she left. She spent the next five years traveling from one graveyard to the next with what the modern world called Ragdolls. Despite being more zombie than anything, their appearance earned them the name.

After a pretty messed up possession that made her nearly kill a good friend, she was told about Drake Academy. From then on out it's all basically pretty simple to figure out.</sub>

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it's kinda long -got carried away-

I love love love how this came out. I worked on it for about..I guess six hours give or take.

The one where she's all alone is her by herself after the first time her husband raped her, curled up in a blanket. The one behind the closeup of her as a ragdoll is obviously her husband and herself. Then of course, the Angeni of today.

With her stitches and all that, thinking back about her crappy past >P

Obviously in five years her hair and skin have darkened up a bit <3

Now, while she is completely and utterly terrified of men in the sexual sense she has no quarrel against them as friends. As long as she doesn't have to date them because she feels like if she's ever put in the position (even if they're simply asking) of doing anything more than talking that she'll break down and lose it.

So the idea is completely traumatizing for her.

But she isn't exactly straight up gay, either, she still admires the way boys look and she hopes to be able to overcome her fear eventually. But she's never been in a real relationship with either sex other than with the Hunter. (Also, came very close to being in a relationship with the girl, Laela, from her last graveyard that she nearly killed). So she's completely relationship retarded and seriously confused about it all so she tries to avoid it all together.

Angeni, Flo, Aponi, etc. (c)

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"Monster" lyrics (c) Meg & Dia